My Secret Daughter
Despite his frequent displays of annoying behavior, I would never, ever cheat on my husband.
I don’t approve of or wnat this to happen, but I have occasionally felt attracted to guys, including one named Salvador. It was the kind of thing where you are attracted to someone, and therefore you stay as far away from him as possible because you’re married. Not DEAD, however, so sometimes there’s chemistry with people–it’s not my fault. You will know if I feel chemistry with you, because I will refuse to speak with you or look at you. It may seem extreme–but it’s for the best. Bye bye. Just joking.
Well, Salvador and I never said goodbye. Come to think of it, we never said hello (due to our chemistry. Hahaha–good one.) There was never any contact, and very few words between us. So, I haven’t seen him in almost 3 years. Occasionally I will have a memory about him. Or even better a dream. I still haven’t managed to kiss him in a dream, but last night, it began to seem I was making a little progress.
I was visiting this house in Central America. In this big hallway, there was a book. Kind of like a register that you sign at a wedding. And for some reason, I was looking at it. I noticed these oddly scribbled shapes here and there that looked kind of like the number 4. For whatever reason, Salvador was on my mind. Maybe I was in the town he was from.
As it turned out, these number 4 symbol things were messages to me from him! I was so excited to learn this. He was trying to leave me messages to tell me that he knew I was in town, and he was too. He wanted to meet me to tell me something really important. I’m not sure how it all came together, but we met. And he looked soooo handsome. He told me he had really missed me and he was happy to see me. We talked and felt really excited to be together. But something was wrong…He tried to prepare me for some big secret. He said stuff like “Hey, now don’t get mad…I should have told you this a long time ago… Okay, I’m going to tell you but please don’t hate me..”
But it still came as a total shock…I had no idea what was coming…And finally he said it. He told me that we had a daughter together! I was so amazed. But happy. Wow! I have a daughter with Salvador! Has he been raising her here in El Salvador? Are we married? She’s already 3? How odd it must have been for me to give birth to a child without even realizing it. How odd that I would abandon the child in El Salvador.
It was so dumb, even for a dream. Why would Salvador write symbols that looked like the number 4 rather than calling me? How could I be lucky enough to have a romantic interlude with Salvador and FORGET that it happened? And having a daughter but not knowing it…A little too out of the box. I also find it frustrating that despite all this, we still didn’t kiss in the dream. Oh well.