1. At first, I thought Sexy Boss was sort of dumb, though good at managing people. So, he was handsome–but not intriguing…But as it turns out, he’s super intelligent. Thank heaven for the other details that dull those qualities…more below.
2. Sexy Boss has a girlfriend. She’s foreign. I love foreigners. That kind of made me like Sexy Boss for his perspective, as well as his handsomeness and intelligence. I was beginning not to like all the things I liked about Sexy Boss.
3. Sexy Boss talks about alcohol a lot and also seems to drink quite frequently. We love Sexy Boss, but details like this make us glad we are married to a man who couldn’t care less about alcohol and does not enjoy barhopping.
4. Some people in our company use Twitter. Saw a post on there by Sexy Boss about this book he’s reading on why men can’t be monogamous…And his post said something to the effect of how nice that this book was helping him understand himself. Mhm. Sexy bosses are never monogamous.

That was so nice to read. Not because I want Sexy Boss to be the cheating type–but because I am so happy to be married to a man who doesn’t need a book to learn how to be monogamous. He just IS monogamous. And he doesn’t need a book to understand himself. He understands what he wants and what he needs and the difference between those concepts.

So, did I stop working REALLY hard so Sexy Boss will think I’m smart? Goodness no! I really want him to think I’m smart. Does that mean I will not spend a very long time making sure my eyeliner looks perfect and my hair looks freshly styled before the next office meeting? Mmmm no. I guess I want Sexy Boss to think I’m smart and pretty even though he is a cheating, barhopping, showing off his motorcycle “non-establishment” type, and even though I’m super happy with my husband.

This makes no sense. I can’t really explain it. Crushes are kind of fun. Especially if you are like me and you avoid the object of your crush like the plague.

How to find a husband…Or better–how to find the right husband. This was my main question for several years after college. I remember dating. I liked it (okay, loved it), except when I was on a date with a mean guy, charmer type, user, cheapskate, compulsive liar, drug addict, superficial bragger, or another loser…Finding the perfect partner seemed impossible, and at some point, I remember thinking it was never going to happen. If I’d known how great the internet is for helping ladies find a good man to marry, I would have happily signed up! (I say that because this site is for marriage-minded people like I was, not players just looking for the next fun date.)

It’s so funny looking back. I remember wondering a thousand times “Am I choosing the right person?” I wondered what I’d do if he changed. Changed into what? I don’t know. He was so nice—I just remember thinking “maybe he’s really an alcoholic or psycho, and it’ll all come out after we’re married.” Or, wouldn’t it hurt if he were to be really nice for many years, and then suddenly cheat on me and leave me for another woman?

Of course, when you find your partner, you take a leap of faith. So many times I tried to figure out how to verify that I was making the right decision. But it was fruitless. Only time would tell. And I guess, still now, 10 years later, the same rule stands. However, these are the things I saw in my husband then, and these are the things I still love him for now:

• Strong
• Kindness
• Steadfastness
• Dependability
• Grounded
• Unaffected by societal pressures
• Loving father
• Ambitious (for success, not money)
• Brave

That said, oh boy, does my husband ever have his faults! Me too, of course. But…there are so many people in the world looking for a little attention, tenderness, and company. There are others who have completely given up on love. That makes me so sad. The upside is that even giving up on love and romance doesn’t prevent it from sweeping you off your feet when Mr. Right walks into your life!

I wouldn’t trade my husband for the world—not for Hot Dad, Adam Lambert, Sexy Boss, heck, not even Clive Owen. (You know who that is, right? If you don’t, be advised that you’re missing out on some very serious hotness.) And for all of those young ladies out there who are sad and who have given up on love, I can only say that if I managed to figure out how to find a good husband, I really believe you will too.

Well, I do love what I have learned on the job. But that’s not why I am willing to pay $300 per month for my job…No, I’m paying $300 a month for my job because it’s cheaper than trying to take classes at a local college, or even online. And it’s better than classes because I have a big portfolio + all the training classes would give me + job exerience=will be easier to find a new job later than it would be if I were only studying right now versus working.

Oh, also, there is the added bonus of many cute guys at my job. But that has nothing to do with the reasons I’m willing to pay $300 a month to work there–no sir, sorry, that is where I DRAW THE LINE–I will NOT pay money to go to a job just to see the cute guys there! Man, I drive a hard bargain. What can I say? Except that it’s probably time to figure out how much longer we can afford for me to have this job.

Also, I have to comment on my manager. Man I  really hope he isn’t reading this–I know, I’ll be tricky–I have 3 managers (in a heirarchy) and could be talking about any one of them–I’ll be vague so that if one of those managers IS reading this, he will still have NO IDEA whether this is about him or the other guys. (It is theoretically possible that one of them could have read this blog. think I sent a link as a writing sample–they wanted to see evidence of blogging. In retrospect, WHY would I send this? You can’t send stuff like this when applying for a JOB. I find it very worrisome that I did that. Scratch the part where I said “I think I sent this”–I know I did–I was just pretending like I wasn’t sure because it was SO DUMB to do that and I was momentarily embarrassed…) Well, anyway, my boss is a A really good-looking GUY who’s disguised as a nerd. In other words, he has the hot “geek” thing going on. I think you know what I mean. That’s it–I can say no more except that he also looks very fit and hides it under loose clothing. Thank you. I feel so much better now. Also, there is no chemistry between us whatsoever–and I am glad.

Oops–I just realized that this post is absolutely ridiculous. I just said that I pay money to go to my job, I like that there are a lot of cute guys there, and my boss is a hot nerd.

I’m sorry–I know that it’s very unlikely any readers of this blog are in junior high, yet I keep writing about topics that are suited for junior high schoolers. Okay. I’m going to get it together and post a GOOD POST. One suited for adults. Don’t worry, it won’t be graphic. Just more mature than this one.

ANYWAY, MY HUSBAND IS BACK!!! Yaaaaaaaaay! And being so sweet. And looking so incredibly fine! Take it from me: If you’re getting sick of your husband working around the clock, acting weird, and telling un-funny jokes, just get him to go work out of town for three months. By the time he gets back, you will have forgotten all of his faults. Absence really does make the heart grow fond.

Next bit of news: remember how my ventures always fail, but it’s okay because I like risk-taking? Well, while I hate change and making waves, I must admit, it does appear that one (granted one of about eight this year), but nevertheless ONE of my ventures is proving to be quite lucrative. I am very shocked. And the funniest thing–it has nothing to do with writing, Russian, or teaching, the only real skills I have…But knowing me, it will fail soon–so I probably shouldn’t have mentioned it. I’m most likely just causing myself awkward embarrassment later. “Hey Holly, how’s that lucrative venture?” Yeah, the answer will be “You mean living in my car? Very enjoyable, thank you for asking!” BTW, no car crashes lately either. GO ME.

Anyway, moving right along. Immature news–I apologize in advance: there is a Hot Guy at work–don’t worry, as you know, I avoid hot guys at all costs–keep them away from me. I’m married. BUT I’m not dead, plus I can’t help that my eyes are able to see. So, they sometimes end up looking at this really cute guy at my job! He and I ended up in the same room today–worry not, I made a b-line out of there at the speed of light. I’m so pathetic–I think this guy is like 20 or something. Another oddity: Remember the Hot Dad from before who looked like my husband? (Wonder how he is doing?) Well Hot Co-worker…also looks like my husband. I am not sure what this means, but it can’t be normal. Something else to ask “the therapist” I’ll visit one day. Anyway, I’ll keep you updated on Hot Coworker. (Please note that the updates will be really dumb and boring…things like “Hot Coworker walked by my cubicle.” or “I think I figured out Hot Coworker’s name.” If the updates get too ridiculously boring, please let me know, and I will avoid posting them.)

DARN IT. I just realized that I totally missed my self-imposed deadline for going to bed. AS ALWAYS!!!! It’s already 11:21pm. How on earth did this one post take 30 minutes? Thank you so much for reading it. Good night.

But I must admit, it’s going to be odd to work around people again. I will be working as a web copywriter at a place that does lots of Internet stuff…so, the office is full of  young men. Some of them, I noticed, are quite good-looking. That’s okay though, because a) I plan on being anti-social and staying in my cubicle at all times and b) should any of them try to flirt with me, I will either not realize it, or if that person is attractive, stay far, far away from him from that moment on. I’m an Aries. I steer clear of hot stuff at all times, especially hot guys (except, of course, my husband).

I hope everyone is enjoying this discussion because it just frightened me. I am about to get a new job in a new field, and rather than talking about what I’m supposed to talk about in this post, I end up talking about hot guys? Am I in high school? Or am I happily married with three children? This blog scares me sometimes.

OKAY, but what I was TRYING to write about is the ACTOR’s STRIKE. It appears that they will strike. Who wants to start a movie if you can’t finish it due to an actor’s strike? Lots of money would be wasted…For this reason, many studios stopped making movies months ago. So an actor’s strike could definitely affect my husband’s job.  But since he does work toward the end of movies, the delay for him would not happen immediately, rather many months after the strikes start (if they start).

With this and our recent 3 months of no paychecks (2 months of unemployment + 1 month waiting for checks even after starting work), I thought, “Hey, maybe I should get a job.”  My salary has been a dependable back-up for us for several years…until last spring when publishers stopped publishing books. (Not literally, but even the big guys like Random House and Pearson had huge lay-offs, so obviously they are printing fewer books, which means fewer projects for me and others.)

SO I applied for this job that looked really awesome (and turned out to be as awesome as it looked), and I got it! Hadn’t interviewed in 7 years. Boy, if you want to feel old, do something you haven’t done in over 5 years. Anyway, I got the job right in time. Now if the actor’s go on strike, we’re all covered. And if the economy continues to tailspin, I’ve done my best to insulate us. By the way, images I keep seeing of my husband staying at home with our children terrify me–I’m seeing candy and cake for meals and my 2nd grader making it to school each day after lunch…But hopefully we’ll BOTH keep our jobs, and mine will be back-up.

My ultimate goal is to prove how reliable I am and see if there might be telecommuting possibilities down the road. Though it also might be nice to ONLY work till 5pm and not 9-11pm each night like I’ve had to for the past 5 years. But I’ll keep you posted:)